Saturday, 10 October 2015

If I could escape

This is a bit of an unsettled time for me. I'm can't go into details here, but there are a lot of things going on in the background right now that are making me feel very unsettled and agitated, and I seem to have a head full of conflicting thoughts and ideas, constantly whirring with an ongoing internal dialogue as I try to resolve the different issues, getting nowhere fast.

It's all making me very tired and irritable, and I really really need a break from it all.

I watched Into the Wild the other night, a true story about a man who decides to leave everything behind to live in isolation in the Alaskan wilderness. It was a bit of an odd film but it really got me thinking about escaping from it all, and daydreaming about selling up, buying a camper van and driving off into the sunset.

Many years ago I talked about doing that very thing: I decided that when I retired, I would buy a motor home and spend a couple of years travelling around the UK visiting all of the places I'd always wanted to see. And in all honesty, right now, that dream has been reawakened.

This feeling of being unsettled isn't new, I've talked a lot recently about moving away and making a new start and maybe this is all part of that. It's probably no coincidence that my new favourite blog is Us In a Bus, about a family of six who live in a bus and have spent the last two years touring New Zealand. Seriously, I don't know how they do it but they have four boys under the age of 10 and still manage to make it work. Truly inspirational stuff, I'm so envious.

So surely it's got to be easy for a lone woman and her dog to do it? I've already had a word with Alice, and she's up for it.

We all have dreams of doing something crazy (or is it just me?) but this one is seriously taking up a lot of my thinking time right now.  But, but... of course there is planning involved, and  boring financial details, and even the practicalities of can I actually do it.  

I've already got a sketchy idea of how to afford it (sell house, invest in small flat to come back to when life on the road loses its appeal, rent the flat off in the meantime and live off the rental payments).  Maybe it's just a dream, but I'd love to give it a go if even for a short while.

Of course at the moment I still have responsibilities here, including the small detail of a teenage daughter who wants to stay put so she can start college next year. So I have some time before I could even consider doing it, but that's planning time, right? Turning this crazy plan into reality? Or realising that I really am completely mad and haven't got a hope in hell of surviving more than a week on the road.

I don't know, maybe I am mad for thinking it could work, but in the meantime I'm enjoying daydreaming about it and plotting my escape.

Do you think I'm crazy or do you fancy it too? Where would you escape to?